If it looks like this, dont worry.
Why? You are still alive.
So, it means that you still have time to repent!!!
قُلْ يَا عِبَادِيَ الَّذِينَ أَسْرَفُوا عَلَى أَنْفُسِهِمْ لَا تَقْنَطُوا مِنْ رَحْمَةِ اللَّهِ إِنَّاللَّهَ يَغْفِرُ الذُّنُوبَ جَمِيعًا إِنَّهُ هُوَ الْغَفُورُ الرَّحِيمُ
Say: "O 'Ibâdî (My slaves) who have transgressed against themselves (by committing evil deeds and sins)! Despair not of the Mercy of Allâh, verily Allâh forgives all sins. Truly, He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.
Az-zumar, ayah 53
To whom Allah addresses this ayah?
To the worst of the worst of sinful people who have excessively repeated horrible mistakes.
Sometimes people think after they have committed sins, they should not stop because they think there is no point to repent since Allah views them as bad people. No no no no no no no. Remember, this is from shaytan. Allah wants us to remove this concerns and seek the mercy of allah. Decide to change your life NOW and be a good muslim.
Dont despair from the mercy of allah. It does not matter how many you've sinned, allah will and can forgive your sins constantly.
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May Allah saves you and I from the Hellfire - Ameen